I wanna stand up, I wanna let go
You know, you know - no you don’t, you don’t
I wanna shine on in the hearts of men
I want a meaning from the back of my broken hand

Another head aches, another heart breaks
I am so much older than I can take
And my affection, well it comes and goes
I need direction to perfection, no no no no

Help me out
Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don’t you put me on the backburner
You know you got to help me out, yeah

And when there’s nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
These changes ain’t changing me
The cold-hearted boy I used to be

Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don’t you put me on the backburner
You know you got to help me out, yeah
You’re gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you’re gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you’re gonna bring yourself down

I’m a Pisces. 

Someone you’re very fond of could be in a difficult mood today. Don’t let your sensitivity get the better of you, Pisces. Don’t take offense at what this person may say in frustration. Intuit what they’re feeling and be your usual compassionate self. This could strengthen your relationship and make you feel good, too

It’s actually quite accurate. Someone who is quite dear to me was feeling quite frustrated today with everything and I think I handled it quite well, more so when I got home from work. 

Originally, I intended on trashing you with this letter. I was going to explain why I despise you and why you’re one of my biggest disappointments. However, I realized that it does not pay off to be spiteful. Instead, I’ll just remember your positives as my pseudo-brother and hope that you leave your ignorance behind. 

Dear Jerkslayer. 

You’re my best friend and I love our relationship. There’s no pressure to hang out every second in order to remain relevant in each other’s lives. In truly distressing moments, we’re always there for each other instinctively. I think you’re the only one that I can party with and then spend the next day baking and watching movies with our pillow pets by our side. 

I feel like we really did grow up together. Everybody goes through shit, but that doesn’t diminish what we’ve been through and how it affected us. It kind of forced us to get out of this denial we were in and start making more mature decisions. 

Dear E.P. 

I wasn’t originally going to write about you but I feel the need to, especially after recent events. I do not exaggerate when I say that you are a goddess among men. I don’t think there’s anyone that dislikes you because you’re practically devoid of flaws. During the school year, an early night for you was 1 in the morning. You managed to hold down a job while achieve amazing grades. You’re the only person that would spend their morning delivering cupcakes to their friends or would the time to bring KINGDOM HEARTS to a friend that you’re not particularly close. You’ve been the best historian that AHS has ever had, and that’s because of your dedication. Even Mr. Anchel raved on about how lucky he was to have you as an officer this year because you brought everything together. You funneled in your own money when needed and you never complained. Whenever I start losing faith in everyone around me or I think about complaining about my work load, I look towards you because you’re just so damn amazing. If I would’ve told you that I wanted to run for Senior Class Historian, you would’ve stepped down. I don’t know understand how someone could be so selfless, and that’s why I adore you so much. 

Part of what makes you so spectacular is how you interact with people. 

You reach out to everyone and the amount of love that you get back is a testament to your greatness. 

and then of course 

I wasn’t lying when I said that I want to give you a crown, cape and a scepter and give you a piggie back ride around the school. You deserve that and more. 

-Love forever and always, Qaree

You’re the only person that I can be completely horrible without worrying about judgment. It’s like we use each other as our venting ground to say the most morally reprehensible things and then we can talk for hours about our future goals within the same breath. Most people wouldn’t know that we’re as close as we are and most wouldn’t understand the dynamics of our friendship. You’re one of the few that knows enough to call me a ‘bitch’ without me feeling offended. 

For almost a year I’d come home and wait for you to log onto AIM to talk, and the days that we didn’t talk, it was weird. You’re a key component of my life. Sometimes I wonder if you think you’re expendable to me, which would be my fault. I don’t want you to leave my life and I want to be able to still call you up in college to a start off a story as “So, this bitch..”. 

End of story, I adore you. 

- Qaree

You’re in my bedroom right now and as you’re going on about how you’re about to get your “dick wet” and whether you should go Puerto Rican or Colombian, I can’t help but to pity you. You’re so pathetic and you don’t even realize it. The only time you were happy was when you were in an emotionally and physically abusive relationship or when you were gorging on food, and now that you can’t do either you feel incomplete although you just bought a brand new car, dog, and you’re making far more money than most at 22. 

I hate that mom and dad insist on me being your keeper, even though I’m five years your junior. I shouldn’t have to fill your role as big brother, and yet when you did act like a “big brother” all you did was manipulate me to do your bidding, and the scars of which still haven’t faded. 

This whole summer I’ve been dealing with how one can harbor such intense feelings of love and hate for a person. After every conversation with you, I end up feeling guilty and confused. I hate who you were in the past and I can’t get over that. The amount of trauma this family has been through solely because of you is ridiculous. It’s a bit hard to forget waking up in the middle of the night to your mother crying in the doorway, screaming for the husband that’s hardly there. If anything, the only positive effect you’ve managed to have on this house is that you kept us together a little bit longer, but even that is questionable. You know that I despise you, and I’m not shy about it. It pains me to request a favor from you and yet I know that you’ll follow through because of the guilt that has been building. However, despite it all, the naive part of me still loves you and wishes the best for you. I just don’t know how much longer that part of me will exist. 

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Would it be cheating even if I said the Enterlude of Sam’s Town? Ahahaha. 

Usually I’ll put all of the Killers albums on shuffle and I’ll just spend the day listening to them. I’ll randomly hone in on a lyric that makes me reevaluate the song and I’ll end up appreciating it. 

If I had to pick one song, however, I guess it’d be The Ballad of Michael Valentine. I haven’t had one of those moments with that song yet.