For AP literature I’m reading The Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway. The story centers around Jake being in love with a woman who’s basically a nymphomaniac. It’s apparent that they love each other but she can’t remain with him (and her other suitors) because her needs aren’t being satisfied. It’s horrible because the closes Brett will get to love is with Jake, and Jake is hopelessly devoted to her. Reading this books makes me question how instrumental sex is to a relationship.
I’m a virgin and romantically challenge, so my perspective on sex and relationships are limited to what I can observe. I’m aware of the emphasis that our society puts on sex, but I always felt that it was exaggerated and a phase that people grew out of. I always figured a mature relationship was mostly about the emotional content with the physical aspect following after. As I’m growing older, I’m wondering if my thoughts on sex and relationships are naive.
Ahahahaah, oh my.
My first kiss was behind the gym with a girl who already had a boyfriend in the 8th grade. I remember being so nervous the night before that I looked up how to give a proper kiss. Ahahahahahaha. Well, when the moment finally came, I ended up missing her lips. It was absolutely horrible.
As for my first “love”, that’s an interesting story to tell. There was this girl that I was enamored with for three years and it was a rather tumultuous period of time for me. It’s almost funny to look back at it because those feelings for her were real.. but they’re so foreign to me now. But, she was my everything. I’d do anything for her, and she knew it. She didn’t intentionally take advantage of me, but it still happened. She knew that I’d always be there for her, even if she found another man. She subtly led me on by telling me there was moments that she saw us together but I kind of ‘missed’ them. Basically, she was Summer Finn and I was Tom Hansen (ironically enough, she’s the reason as to why I watched the movie).
But, oh well. Her and I are cool now. I’m a Summer Finn and she’s a Tom Hansen. Everything worked out, I suppose.
You just need to stop lying to yourself and realize it.
Obviously I’m single because I have commitment issues.
The single life actually isn’t all that bad. Previously, my life has been so crazy that I did not have time to properly dedicate myself to someone. Now that I’m clearing out a lot of stress and the school year is over, I’m starting to look for a relationship. Here’s to hoping that Summer 2011 will be successful for me.
It’s always a bizarre feeling.
Doesn’t necessarily have to be sexually intense, but I really am craving companionship.
